Day 1 - Day 30. Summarized…
Day 1
“I think I missed you before I even met you.”
I can’t stop thinking about how your eyes fulfilled my life for the mer set in time. I just miss your eye. There’s a quote I like and I wanna share it. “Our eyelashes brushed like they would weave together by themselves and make us a sight worth seeing.”
I just wish you would put aside your stupid thoughts cause if you knew the truth you would know I am nothing like or near what you made of me in your mind. But seeing Michael said.. I love you too you shattered my heart and made me see life in a different view… so I have to say goodnight cause I have job interviews in the morning.
That was the complete day one note.. here comes the summary of the rested.
“It always seem like every time I go to say something about my feelings the words I use get caught in my throat, so I try to write them down and my fingers turn to mud.. So all I want to say is just stuck in my head. That’s when I start to wish that you could get inside my mind and know them… but I know once you went into my mind you would never want to talk to me again cause I am so messed up inside..” -Anthony DeName
You are wrong about everything. I loved Emily, and I cared for her.. I always will cause she became a part of me. But I came to realize I love you more! I want to be with you.. I care for you more…. I will always love you more than her But…
I know now… what you want. And that’s to live life… I love so much I have to let you go. I mean I don’t want to be with anyone but you.. But it’s okay. You can say I wanna be with Emily if I wanted to I would talk to her and get her back! I don’t want her. I want you. But I am okay with letting you go. I love you so much that I know I can’t try to keep you when you don’t want to be. I hope you smile when your with him.. Cause that’s all I want. I hope when he looks down onto your amazing body he has all the love I have in my heart for you and more.. I hope he can complete you. I am sorry shit ended like they did. But that’s cause you wanted them to end that way. But just know. I love you. And always will.. Take care my gorgeous friend… text me when you have something to say. :D
